Life

So my life fell apart today ....so im not really interested in talking much. tommorow i will blog all about it but right now I hate life and myself and everyone around me execpt my boyfriend. SO this is my blog for today, I will blog a nice long post tommorow but right now i am so fucking pissed and hate life

Adventure in Price Chopper Land

Today, me and my roommates decided to go to price chopper to pick up a few things. I decided that I was going to take my camera, because are campus and area around it is beautiful. So I took many black and white photographs. I think black and white pictures show the soul of what is happening. I love color do not get me wrong but Black and White is really my true photographic passion. So Im going to put some photos up, and I will critic them, these are some of my favorites though.

This photo was taken at an intersection. I really love the contrast of how light the road is and how dark the trees are. I also like how the people on the right side are very dark and the guy walking towards me is light. I do not like the guys face its very open-mouthed and weird.

Its very wierd how much I can love a photo and hate it all at the same time.

This picture the  tree is very healthy an the leaves are orange and beautiful at top, then it is bare to the left and the right side are green dying leafs. It was pretty. I loved it.I wish I had gotten more of the top of tree in the picture. I love how the tree is kind curved it gives it a certain quality that other trees do not have.

I love the zig-zag pattern to this picture. I love how there are students walking to class it gives it a very nice feel.I do not like that there is not much dark blacks.

So now its past 12 which means techniquelly i did not blog on the 15 but this is my blog for the 15th.

I think my photography will shows a side of me that I really love.

Sammy dearest

off to bed

night all! :?)

Cafe World, Farmville, and Happy Aquarium and my Life!

      In about august I became obessed with Farmville,then so many people joined it  that it began to glich. I was kind of glas beacuse it made me mad and i wanted to quit playing then. I have not played in two weeks.

My farm looks liks this  now. I made it so big so the details were visible.
           Now I have joined Cafe World which is just as bad but for some reason Im addicted.

honestly I just like the way it looked inverted. This consumes at least an hour a day of my time. It ridicoulous. I really do not care though. I'm sorry today's blog is so boring. I just am very tired and have an extreme headache. My life feels like its falling apart. I always feel so alone and afraid of what will happen next. I think I failed my mid-term today and I did not go to class because my head hurt so bad. I am so scared about this. I do not understand  if college is the right place for me. I do not think I can make it here but I will try. I am really trying to like it her but I may have to switch schools next year, but I don't know I guess I'll give it the good ol' college try ( no pun intended). I think college is a place I should stay but I do not want to. I want to...well I dont know what I want to do....actually.....ummm so yeah ......

Oldie but Goody

Sammy Darling

Weight Issues, Bruises, Life

        One thing I have always had a problem with is my weight. I am about 5'5'' and I weight 179 lbs...I am sort of well proportioned, it is not all fat. But lately I cannot take looking at my self in a mirror, which I could never do anyway. Now its unbearable though, I want to cry every time I see myself.I have decided it is time to change that. I am not healthy and i need to get healthy and be able to love myself again. This is a quest I must go on. I need to take this journey. I may fail but I have to try. So there may be posts during the day, saying things like I'm hungry or I'm blogging a second or third time today so I do not eat. This is a strategy so that i do not eat when I'm bored. I am in college and it is very cold out, so that takes any walking besides back and forth to class out of the picture. i take the stairs from my room down everyday and I try to take them up every time but I probably take the elevator once a day up. I live on the 5th floor of my building, the highest floor. And it is ten flights of stairs up. I get very tired and winded, but this is a good workout for me which I have just began.I have to walk to class everyday which is a 5 minute walk there and back then I have to climb from 2 flights of stairs to 8 flights just to get to class. So i think this is enough exercising if I can control my eating. I think that blogging about my sucess and my failure will help me and hopefully when I get fans or follower I think there called, this will help them, having a "diet" buddy.

       The other thing I wanted to talk about was my monster bruise. His name is Bob and he will probably be my friend for a few weeks. Saturday night  I got out of my boyfriend's truck, it was late and dark out. I did not see a tree stump on the side of the road and I tripped. I now have a fantastic war wound.

To the left is the top of my calf, this is three days after the incident.  To the right is what the top of my calf looks like but you have to turn your head a little to the right.

Fabulous isn't it. I'm gonna go again, Talk to you soon.

Sammy Darling

My Tattoo

So, One important thing to me is tattoos. I think tattoos make a person unique, no one else has the same one as you. The one above is my first tattoo, I got this about a month ago and its on my forearm.  This is my first but I am only 18. I will have more. I will have also my lip pierced. I am a girl who believes this is just another piece of art. This is like if I put up a painting above my bed or in my living room. This is permanent and me. It defines me because I have an obsession with music. This is a treble clef. I love this piece and it is mine forever. This is an introduction to tattoos. I will look up others in other blogs and dissect and describe them. I have plenty of things to say about them  but I thought I would give an intro to mine.

First Blog!

      So, I decided to start this blog because I need a way to vent. I need a way to express myself. I need a way to talk about things that bother me. My title is My life. My thoughts, My free-thinking. It is this because of everything I just said. This is my life, expressed to you. These are my thoughts and I also want your opinion on my topics. My free-thinking, this is an open-minded zone, that will not discriminate against anything or anyone.
      I should probalaby tell you something about myself. I am a 18 year old  bi-sexual girl. In a relationship with a man. I am a freshman in college studying Special Education/Childhood Education.  I come from a home with a single mom and a little brother. I also have 3 sisters and a little brother from my father. My life has not always been easy, but I've dealt. I want this to be the place I can talk about anything and everything. I am aiming to post a blog everyday. I may write, I may post a video....If I write I will always post a picture,whether of me or a photo I've taken.

Bye bye for now!

SammyDarling