Fuck this shit!

So Ive always tried to be a good person. Ya know and do the right thing. I dont get how Im the one always getting screwed over by people then? I found out yesterday that Im being kicked out of where I live. I have no clue why this would happen. Since I got home from school Ive done nothing but help out around the house and Ive been keeping it pretty damn clean at that. I do all of the laundry, I mean come on what the hell am I doing wrong. You really are kicking me out because YOU ruined my shirt when we told you not to do the laundry. Do you understand that I do the laundry when Im here. You guys are never here and you decide that because you come down here for one week and stay here your in charge, that you know how everything works? Well guess what you dont. Its not right at all.

You guys have no clue as to what your sending me back home into. You have no idea about the shit Ive been put through all my life. Do you understand that my mom has a new boyfriend and Im scared to go home. I mean I have no reason to judge this guy he seems nice but I dont know him. He doesnt know me. I dont want to be in a house with him. And then some kid has been staying in my room since I left. Its still my room but it doesnt feel like it anymore. Its not my room. I havent slept in that room in forever other people have been.

Then on top of all this I have to wonder where me and my boyfriend are going to stand after all this shit goes down. When I was in school we fought all the time and since Ive been home things have gotten so much better. Were barely fighting. I mean come on what the hell did I do to deserve this shit? Im so scared this is going to break us up its not even funny. Im so scared were going to be torn apart.

So right now Im really really hating life. Everything about it. I need help. I need answers. I really wish this wasnt happening because I dont want old habits to resurface as a result of this. Im just so scared.

such an old picture but it basically describes how Im feeling. My mouth is hut because I cant do anything about this. My face is surprised but you can tell Im hurting inside. Then if front of all that it says I love you because Im hoping we can last through this.

So im leaving you with this song.  

If you only knew- Shinedown